| i seriously dunno what's happening to me
it feels like i've been wandering around aimlessly, only to lose my already inadequate energy
and the very same question keep coming to my mind:
Why am I doing this? Why am I doing ALL these?
And of course, there's never an answer.
Over the past few weeks, I was kind of consumed by myself.
I couldn't feel myself anymore. Just a week before the day of release of JUPAS result, I started my 10-day-career as a teacher.
Art teacher, scary huh?
Anyway, I figured a way out and things ran smoothly.
It's so nice to have met all these prospective F.1 boys and girls.
Lovely. Innocent.
The workload was far beyond our (Kevin and I) expectation. We'd had the wrong impression that the whole tutoring thing was just speaking a few lines of English, teaching them about the school and that's all.
And again, we were wrong.
We had to mark their test papers and homework (which kills me as some of them can barely write English). Then we input the marks in the computer. Not to mention the preparation work.
Nevertheless, the chance is invaluable and the time is enjoyable. I remember that when it was time for the release of JUPAS result, my students and I were still having fun playing the ice-breaking games. The time was nine, but it was not until 9:15 did I suddenly remember what I 'd been supposed to do.
And I checked my pocket. No keys. That meant I have no access to the 107 computer.
I ran for Irene. I got the TRC key and I went to the JUPAS page.
And there it went: 6341 HKU BEng[CivE-Law]
I was relieved. All those tiny annoying momentary pieces of worry vanished at that moment.
So did Kevin. Yeah, we're going to be schoolmates for 5 more years. LOL Then everything came from nowhere.
Countless registrations, fees (which bother me most), halls, dates, venues, people, places, You Name It. With all these things I had to deal with, I could hardly feel them. They just came, and I faced them. There's never a plan, nor a schedule. It was some sort of spooky pressure, that you realized from now on you were a kid no more, that you had to plan your own schedule of school, schedule of life. Finally, with great effort, I finished HP7. The ending was great and carefully written. It was not until then, that I believed JK Rowling really had planned the whole story before writing the first book. I also felt a bit proud of myself, for I had never been succumbed to the temptation of having a glimpse of the ending before I finished the book. The feeling is, now that I can recall, SATISFIED. Social Service programme. That's one thing I 've been tangled in the entire summer. Carrying the title, I have the very obligation to commit to the programme in FEG.
On the other hand, I was one of the few who helped starting the programme in FOSL (2nd Bzz).
Apparently I did not handle the situation well. I looked absent-minded all the time. My apology to all of you. Anyhow, I must move on. So do You, and all of you.
Sweet Anticipation. |
